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Today juz completed one paper, tough is the word. Felt lethargic abt working and decided to walk ard. Had a very long walk, all the way to NIE library and was impressed by the space in the library. This was the first time i have seen it. Wow is the word! However, i explored that whole place and found that its not really the type of place for me, cos its too quiet.

I was slightly disappointed in the way i approached the paper, i simply dun see the calm and composed me. Probably the paper was really tough this sem. Hope my other papers can be a consolation to me.

Been brainstorming on a lot of things during my walk. One of which was the reevaluation of my own character and aspiration. These few days i had the companion of Rama, and it has been very much of a pleasure being with him. He was a little confused with his concepts and seeked my help and i gladly obliged him. Everyday, we ended in long discussions and sometimes i would try to answer to some of his questions.

I questioned myself on the sincerity to helping him. Is it for merely putting up a show so that he can go ard telling pple Esen is a nice guy who helps me with work? Is that wad i want to achieve? The thought of it simply made me shiver and i dun think its the case. I helped out of the passion of teaching and with the motive of solidifying my concepts and with the purpose of helping a good person and this is wad i can conclude out of it.

If u are a worthy friend, u would certainly deserve my effort to upkeep this friend. If u are not, den i would not even try to befriend u. I am wad i am, i hope others will not read too deeply into me - one with motive, one with dirty tricks, one with evil intentions, one who tries to gain attention. Pls dun!

Ha enuff of crap. Planning to make good use of the holidays, to work out. Guys, i have included u all in my swimming, soccer and gym regime. I hope we can go have some beach games at sentosa soon. Come to think of it, its been 1 yr since i went with u pple and i know its gonna be time to go there again - to melt in this warm and sunny beach.

I know its nv too much to wish all my good friends all the best for the upcoming papers! Do take care of urself in this crucial period! For those in work, u do have to take good care of urself and get rdy for the end of our exams, lots of activities awaiting. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO