Not courage

If on any normal day, i would not initiate anything which would inflict any damage on anyone, even if the personnel involved is at fault initially. I mean any form of damage, verbally or physically. This is the normal mode of me.

My mode changes if I am in a competitive stage. And this mode is programmed to play to the rules of the game. Intimidation only feeds my courage.

However, there is another mode of me which is often dangerous. This mode has not been switched on, except for once in an unexpected circumstance, turned me crazy. Nvm, i changed that person for the better. This mode is to protect, is to remind, is to burst and explode. Liewise, intimidation feeds my courage.

However, there is something that i m fearful of. To look into the eyes of someone in which i saw vulnerability and some stint of hopes and adventure. Oh my, that stint of adventurous spirit is powerful enough to go right piercing into the vitality of my heart.

My heart weakened, had to instruct my eyes, lost in the vast desert, to look away..

This is not a problem which courage can answer.