Living in a materialistic world

With exams round the corner, i kinda feel very uptight abt it and started preparing for it. This is the 1st time i am feeling a little confident abt doing better. The last time i had this level of confidence was during Sec 4 exams. So it was a long lost feeling finally back. Felt so relieved that staying hall actually motivated me in this way.

I guess my study mates are a great source of motivation. They work serious and there is this balance of crapping and serious discussion which i think sort of suit me very well. I cant really work all the time and i like to be light-hearted sometimes. I enjoy myself very much with them. Jia tong, Li Hui, Benson u pple rock!

Somehow, i feel that there is a need to be serious and do wad i feel is right. I dun wan to grow old one day and realise that i should have probably not gone to university since i screw up my results (which i really did last 2 sem). Now i juz wan to test my limit and know where it lies. And i am surprised that i can actually concentrate for some time. LOL.

Staying hall may be self-fulfilling as it seems, jogging and sufficient exercises, however, the food suck and i kinda miss my mum's cooking. I miss being at home, now i cant watch my fav TV, i cant relax 1 corner at the sofa in my living room. I miss hugging my mum. lol.

Ha,yest spoke to Weili on msn and had a great chat with him. I am glad that he actually spent time to listen to wad i had penned up inside and as usual he will offer the most valuable opinion. About being true to oneself, the spiritual self and not letting oneself be confined within the limits of the materialistic world. It kinda surprised me that in our casual conversation he suddenly told me something of that magnitude.lol. I think his words came at the right time to remind me abt certain things. Now i really think my Shi Fu is everywhere. I pondered over it and made some conclusions however,my language is very limited and i shall not say anything over here for now. Maybe sometime in person soon.=D

I am sorry my friends of 10 years and ivan,the great number one, that i will be kept busy that i cant attend the regular football regime with u pple. Hope u all understand that i nv BS u all. haha. Rest assure that i have not grown fat and become a more serious liability than b4. Unless u all dun wan me liao, i will cont to do my best..lol some crap b4 i end it here..